the diary of a girl named joanne

sometimes it’s just so hard to drill something you’ve been trying to say over and over again into a person’s head. sometimes you just feel like putting those scrawny fingers of yours on his throat and squeeze as hard as physics would allow. sometimes you sympathised him for not being able to understand your so-simple-a-6-year-old-kid-can-understand explanation.

my fingers and toes cannot represent the number of times he’s been asking. i’ve told him: "i’m sorry, not me" "no, i can’t be who you want me to be" "never. period!" "get lost!" it’s as simple as that. he still doesn’t get it. i mean, how dumb is that?

we are 2 different worlds; i’m the sun and he’s……. not even in the universe. as far as i’m concerned we share no similar interests at all. i’m a person who’s still looking around and analysing people, not ready to get committed yet. he, on the other hand, is so eager and desperate. how can we be then??? he’s not even a bf material. he’s not even on my list!!! so idiotic… sometimes, i just laughed my heads off thinking abt it. things have been so tied-up lately. i wonder if i were ever going to get any rest, i mean a vacation far away at least for awhile. i know, buddies, i need a break, need to take things easy. as for this matter, i’ll just turn it into a laughing material for me to relax and cool off. who cares now??? i mean, he’s the one with a problem, not me. after all, who is he?