I DIED…
October 4, 2006 by joannetan86
i don’t know what actually led me to have that horrible dream. yes, i dreamt i died. i mean, it’s definitely horrible, i’m sure no one would ever want to dream that kinda dream. it could probably be the workload i’ve been having throughout the week: assignment datelines, tests, aiesec, IK etc. i’m certainly sleep-deprived. what do you expect… 3-5 hours of sleep daily. don’t wanna mention about how i look these days. i barely dare to look myself in the mirror!
just when i thought i had the opportunity to sleep tight and soundly that night, that was when i dreamt it. first, i dreamt i was driving in my car back home in penang when all of a sudden, a 14-wheeled truck (or 16-wheeled? nvm, that’s not the point!) rammed into my side of the car… felt the impact, my blood oozing out, honk flared, windows broken into pieces and then darkness. the next thing i know, i was standing by the side of the damaged car, looking around. i saw "myself" lying still in the car and there were so many ppl around; screaming and shouting, oohs and aahs. and that was when i realised i died.
everything happened so fast… i didn’t even know what was happening. i saw my family members and friends at my funeral. people crying and mourning. the whole world just froze in time. for the first time in my life, i felt so so so sad. so melancholic, so solemn, so alone. i tried speaking to them, no one could listen… i still had lots of things to tell them, how the accident happened and everything… i just wanted to tell them i was sorry and that i had always loved them. i wished i could have said it earlier. time cannot be reversed.
the dream was so vivid that when i actually woke up, i thought i really had died. coming to my senses, only then i realised that it was only a dream. but somehow, deep inside me i felt uncomfortable… i know something’s stirring. although i don’t believe that bad dreams may actually come true (even good ones), that particular dream has truly opened my eyes about to never take for granted the people and the things around you. i’m not afraid to die. i’m just afraid how everyone i know is going to live his or her life after i die. i don’t want ppl to worry or be sad because of my death. i only want to tell them how much i’ll miss them, and am sorry for all that i’ve done them wrong, and how much i really love them.
haha… our topic of the day dream yaaa…so sad but then u know…. /me only pity 4 u when no body hears u (ahakx) sounded so similar like min hahahah…. so surprise we submitted same topic today… how ever….. or whuttever i’m glad to wake up from my dream and saw u and others picture byme bed side…..thankx gurl…. still can’t imagine that since LLDS you me and michelle were 3 sister…. thankx you the best
hhey,i think it is a good dream lah!coz this means that u are reborn mah!!
u are going to be very lucky d!hehe!
Christianity = reborn ?
Thank God that was just dream hey. I think God was trying to open your eyes and take another point of view in life.
Either ways, it must’ve been a heck scary. I’d be too if I were you. ^^;
i know you’re not familiar with me. doesn’t matter. just wanna let u know that, according to the dream interpretation..when u dreamed that you died, it means that your old self(inner self) have died well sort of..You are becoming a better and new person , stronger and more confident.remember, dying in dreams is a sign of rebirth of your inner self in the reality.Believe me..i dreamed a lot of me dying in it.i got used to it though.Believe in yourself.Don’t be afraid.
Everything happens for a reason.
Hahaha … peace be with u. nothing happen. dont let your self too tired. u r too busy . i cannot see u evrytime nowadays .^^
o…k… dint expect my posting this time could actually generate so many comments… but anyway, i really really do appreciate your comments on my blog… thanks for your concern.
PeiChin: hey, i dun believe in reincarnation lah…
SueMay: Your comment is very helpful. thanks for dropping by. it’s ok if you’re unfamiliar. start getting familiar then!
Lance aka Jetson: probably true about God trying to let me realise something.
alish: so coincidental-nya. yes about “christianity = reborn?”
oh sorry, blanche (ah nell), haha… yes you dun see me now very often… cos i am INDEED very busy. catch up with you some other time. miss you guys though. dunno what’s happening now.